I think I might be depressed. I go through some honestly great days, and then some totally shitty days... I seem to dwell on the shitty. You could call it a funk I suppose, and I hate the way I feel whenever it happens. It tends to center around unhappiness and loneliness, but mostly the loneliness. Not exactly loneliness, but it's different; I mean, I make friends easily, but make very close friends with difficulty. What would happen if I lost those one or two super close ones? Or, worse yet, never meet someone new that I could be close with? Blechhhhhhhggggggg.
On a totally unrelated (well, actually, maybe it's somewhat related), one of my friends' father has cancer. Her little sister wrote a facebook status regarding the cancer, yet in a really indirect way- and I don't believe that many people know about the situation. I want to write a comment of support, yet no one knows about the situation; I feel like a simple 'like' doesn't express what I want to express; and I'm not sure if I'm close enough friends with the little sister to write an inbox message to her. Fucking stymied. I think I might write her a message.
On yippayap, there's a hashtag for problems like these: #firstworldproblems. Pretty self explanatory. Fuck.
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